now unto the Lamb
who sits on the throne
be glory and honour and praise
all of creation resounds with a song
worship and praise Him the Lord of lords.


i am in wonder.
oh how you work everthing out sometimes.
slowly showing things that come into picture,
and even when everything seems so blur
and uncertain,
you still hold everything together.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast.
It is not self-seeking, it is not rude.
Love keeps no record of wrongs.
It always trusts, always hopes,
always perseveres.
Love never fails.

how your word aptly describes Love.
in a world today that uses 'love' so so loosely.
i've realised that if you can't show and express it,
or am unable to take responsibility of it,
of this word "love",
don't use it.
frivolously.

what selfish lives we live sometimes.
caring and being concerned about our problems,
we forget that the world is a much bigger place.
and that Lord,
you look down upon this earth,
and i wonder how you feel.

had that feeling once,
in GP class in yr 1. felt totally lk crying when i heard Ms Lim talking about how lang has changed in the media, and yader yader. exciting GP stuff.
and i jus felt a great sense of grief.
like,
oh man. what on earth is happening now?
and the sadness and helplessness i felt sitting in the classroom just overwhelmed me.

and it has been a while since i've felt that. that tremendous weight that rests upon my heart. on and off.

break my heart from what breaks yours
open up my eyes to the things i see
show me how to love like you have loved me.

how one can feel so much.
all that goes on on the inside.
say to wisdom, "you're my sister."
and to understanding,
'you're my nearest kin.'

and i need you more than ever lord jesus.
as i enter into this new phase.
of surrendering everything to you,
and falling in love with you once again.
and loving others.
yes. doubts do come,
but im trying my very best to lay them down at the cross.
where grace and suffering met.
and trusting you with all my heart.
mind and soul.

and thank you.
i thank God for putting smiles on peoples' faces,
for laughter and sniffs that alternate btw conversations,
for words and silence that are world's apart
and yet, mean so much sometimes.
for time.
for giving us life. to live and to love.

haha.
im hungry. but it will be qt insane and fattenning to the max for me.

help me to do my best in sch.
to have your joy in sch.
to love everyone i meet, especially those tt are harder to love.
to love with the love of Jesus.


shepherd of my soul
i give you full control
wherever you may lead i will follow
i have made a choice to listen for your voice
wherever you may lead i will go.

be it in a quiet pasture
or by a gentle stream
the shepherd of my soul is by my side
should i face a mighty mountain
or a valley dark and deep
the shepherd of my soul is by my side.

Labels: loving you jesus

2:16 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

holy Lord.
you are holy.

Jesus Christ is the LORD.

Labels: beholding your beauty

11:04 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other





let me lay down in this field
hope the days and clouds
turn into something as they pass by.

i don't where
i don't know how
i don't why
but your love can make these things better

warrior.
fight on.

maybe cause we're all broken inside.


but You make me whole.

haha.

Labels: keep my heart strong

10:52 PM

what are you doing with your life?

i like the dark.
with some light in it.



all i wanna do is find my way back into love.
is it so hard for me to love you?


be real to me now
that's all i'm asking
be real somehow
more than anything

i'll try to lay down my sword
put away the doubt and
love a little more.


i've been making signals with sticks
and odd-ends and bits
still there's no sign of a flame.






how?

Labels: comatose. let me wake to you.

12:42 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice
my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now,
let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete
in You.

Labels: so i look to you

9:45 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

these pictures say a thousand things.

and all the memories that come along with it.







i thank God for everyone of them.

3:53 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

stand by everything you've done
stand by the promises you've made
when all the world is swept away
i'll run into Your open arms

i love You
more than life.


10 facts about me:
1# i am not indon-chinese. i am chinese and half-peranakan.
2# i am not in tennis or from some sports cca.
3# i am not britney spears.
4# caron means the french of karen (according to my dad) and is the short form for catherine. but i dont see myself carrying off that name so haha. caron it shall be:)
5# i am in nursing. and yes, it's a relatively new course.i wanted to join medicine but couldn't get in. but God has plans for me. plans far greater than what i can think.
6# i can't speak malay but i'm going to learn!! yay((:
7# i love pokka dots and checkered stuff. which apparently someone thinks its very old. (makes a face)
8# i am learning not to be an IT noob(: big smile.
9# the library shall be my new hang out place.
10# uhh. i love the East. always and forever. namely Bedok-Tampines. shopping rocks here. so cheap!! 5 dollar shirts anyone?

and den again,
school is starting.
agreed with floo tt maybe its just sch blues. tt i don't want to mix around much, and being so antisocial. lk faster want to leave aftr class. or just appreciating being by myself. i think solitude is cool. but no.
You didnt call me to leave a life of solitude.

but to preach good tidings to the poor
to heal the brokenhearted
to proclaim liberty to the captives
and the opening of prison to those who are bound
to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord
and the day of vengeance of our God.
to comfort all who mourn
to console all who mourn in Zion
to give them beauty for ashes
the oil of joy for mourning
the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.
isa61:-3a

so take me as you find me
all my fears and failures
fill my life again.

12:57 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.